This is officially the first post and the start of a new beginning. A million thanks to all of you. A lot of my friends had been asking about the previous blog so this is my answer.

Lately, I have been going through a lot of stress. It was indeed the biggest blow that I've experienced. It came lining up and it never seemed to stop. I didn't know what to do. I could only surrender myself to Allah and no one else. Not only did it affected my social life, my studies deteriorated and I had countless nightmares. I fell gravely sick and I grew quieter. No more sunshine in my life. My family members were the only pillars that supported me. No friends by my side. No one.

I felt as if I was surrounded by spies and fakes. I did not know if the friend I am close to is indeed the one that I should stay away from. I don't want sides. I don't want enemies. Yet...

Every day, I had to endure stares and whispers from them.
Every hour, I wish it will pass quicker.
Every minute, I hope it will all end sooner.
Every second, I pray that Allah will protect me from Satan.

Day by day, I regain back the broken fragments of my confidence. It was hard for me to smile, but I'll try my best to. It was definitely difficult to get back on my daily life, but I'll give it a shot. I know people hate me but I keep telling myself that as long as my family and Allah will stay by my side, I'll keep pushing on.

I want to forget the past. Yes, I want to forgive and forget.
Because the beloved Prophet Muhammad, may peace be upon him, said that

“Do not say, that if the people do good to us, we will do good to them; and if the people oppress us, we will oppress them; but determine that if people do you good, you will do good to them; and if they oppress you, you will not oppress them.”“Thus saith the Lord, 'Verily those who are patient in adversity and forgive wrongs, are the doers of excellence.'”

To think that I will go against his sunnah, the one I kept close to my heart.

“Say what is true, although it may be bitter and displeasing to people.”

Thus, I will not use profanity to describe my anger, I will not curse someone when he or she displeases me and I will not call them names or stepped on their dignity.

“The proud will not enter Paradise, nor a violent speaker.”

Wish me well on my journey to a new and fruitful beginning. Insya'Allah!